I have been proscrastinating the enevitable for some almost seven years . I put out a plea for help not expecting much , you all blew me away with your compassion and financial aid in my time of need . I've sold most of all my material things , tools , home theater , bla , bla , etc. ! I did keep two hand guns though , my Glock 17 and my Ruger 22/45 . I was trying to get together all the money I could hanging on long enough to sell this house . You also helped me get transportation back on the road again plus fuel pellets to keep my class A wife warm through this winter . I thank you all from the bottom of my heart because we were in deep trouble . Middle of winter and 22 miles from any kind of store or gasoline with a crippled truck . My wife is comfortable and I just need time to sell this house . Got to scale down and get closer to doctors and stores . As soon as we sell , I can then get the surgery I've been putting off too long . Great deal on the house plus much equity so I'm willing to come way down on the price . We paid $155,000 for it in 2006 plus we put $80, 000 cash down on it 12 years ago . New roof , vynal siding tucked away in great hunting grounds , nice and quiet ! I can not get this surgery until I set my awesome wife in a more managable smaller home closer to necessities . She can't get through winter in this house without me . With mainly wood and wood pellets being our main source of heat , she's not able to carry the load without me ! With our minamal fixed income , things happened faster than our modest savings could handle so know this , without all of you helping , we could not have lasted this long . There are no words that convey how thankfull we are and how much it helped us ! Now for the the other news ! In that first MRI done back in 2011 , they found two issues . The one you all know about , my neck but the other , I kept hidden pretty much until now ! When I got bitten by that little tick , I contracted Lymes disease . That MRI showed a mass , a tumor of some sort on the left side of my brain , they really didn't know what it was way back in 2011 . It never really bothered me too much until that tick ! After much research , I'd discovered that in rare cases , Lymes can inflame the neuralgical system , weird side effects , brain swelling and other weird symptoms . Spot as I call it was inflamed , they wanted to drill a hole to relieve pressure , cool , my head whistles in high winds ....! I'm prescribed very high doses of morphine to deal with the extreme pain , in turn , it affected my sense of humor , my tolerance to everyday stress and all in all , I'm even more weird now than before ! I really do love this place and being a part of such a wonderful group of people , it's hard to let go ! For every bodies benefit , I'm backing way off until after I get this surgery . I don't know exactly how it will leave me but I do have great faith and tenacity ! I Have overcome many things in my life so this is just another minor set back .,all things are in Gods and the surgeons hands ! We all have good days and bad days so I will try to limit my interactions here to those good days ! I don't want to go out being a complete a$$ hole , just the regular old a$$ hole you've all grown to love and hate ....! I'll keep coming back on and off as long as I can ! Hell , I'm still shooting for my ten year anniversary here at the greatest forum on the net , FTF ..! Well , you've heard more than enough so just remember , "I'LL BE BACK" ....your"'s sincerly . (TERMINATER-NECK) .......! And yo mama still wears combat boots .....! Really do love you all and that's not normal for the ultimate loner I once was .....from the deepest part of my over runneth with joy heart , THANK YOU ALL MORE THAN YOU CAN FATHOM ......!