Know I tossed a turd onto the dining room table with this question to this group, but I could really use some help here. I am looking for CCW that will be fun at the range and as safe as reasonably possible to carry. This will be my 2nd attempt at a carry gun, my first being a little Taurus 738 that was both unreliable and very unpleasant to shoot (sold that one). My HD gun is a S&W sigma 9 which has been perfect so far other than the trigger which I am working on. The Shield is exactly what I need. I really like the safety very hard to accidentally engage and a thumb flick to release. These guns are impossible to get down here in the south without waiting about three months. Then I found the XDs at a gun show and really liked it. Great sights, and trigger, not so sure about the grip safety being much value, and 2 less rounds then the Shield 9mm. The edge in caliber is pretty negligible as far as putting down BGs goes. And most of what i have read indicates that the XDs has a very manageable recoil (which is pretty hard to believe). So it all comes down to this. I have never shot a 45 and am afraid it would be too much gun and no fun to shoot. Most of the comments on the XDs come from very experienced 45ers who like to stay with their favorite caliber in a near pocket pistol. No way to shoot these guns before buying and the obvious solution - "buy both" is just not in my budget any time soon. There is one more factor in this dilemma. We will be spending the week of Thanksgiving in Laredo, TX and I would really like to IWB carry down there. I have picked up a great deal from the expert advice and experiences offered on this forum so I am hoping there might be others who pondered this sort of decision. So, at this point any advice, technical, financial or spiritual that gets me off this fence and to the range would be greatly appreciated.