I'm in the market for a CCW. I own a HK USP45 (a little large but for a bedside gun i can handle it) and S&W m&p9 (perfect fit). Both full size. I had shot SigP226, Beretta M9, Glocks 23/21/27, CZ75b, Springfields XDm, XDs45 (the xds kind of started to hurt after two boxes of ammo because the rough grip but I liked it but didn't shoot too well with it) & the TRP 1911. That's the only 1911 I've shot. I like it but its a little thick in the grips, at least with the wood grips that were on it. I live in Illinois and with CC coming I want to get a nice small firearm to carry. I prefer a 45 but am open to others not .40 though. I want something that I can TRUST with my life. And something that's not a pain to carry. I keep going back to the glock 36 but I have to see how I shoot with it first. I'm kind of scared to carry a 1911 cocked n locked. Because if I flinch and shoot I will be screwed. Plus I'm not too familiar with 1911's. Any ideas for me out there. Like a list of very reliable small comfortable guns to try out. Thanks guys.