I've been living a secret for some seven years now . Back when I had my first MRI back in November 10 th , 2011 , it showed a scary picture . I had totally crushed my neck . I had surgery and miraculously recovered better than any possible expectations ! In that same MRI , they found a mass on my pea brain . At the time , they wanted to , "explore" it . Me , no way , let me heal , see what I've got left and then maybe . I'd been living with head aches every day since , some days better than others but finally , about two years ago , I let them drill their little hole and "explore" ...! The biopsy didn't turn out well . I was told my days were numbered so any chance was better than no chance . Chemo ...! I didn't take well to that , my body was failing me fast so I quit the treatment ! I need to be on my feet , functional , got a wife to take care of so took all summer to get functional but I got up again . I had been , well , fine considering and as functional physically as possible . Lymes disease ! I started having the head aches again , really bad this time so time to research , why now ? Turns out there are many different symptoms and side effects of Lymes , one being inflammation neurologically ! It hit me in a bad place at the worst time , getting ready for winter . I never did totally get my wood bin filled but I did get more than enough to keep the wife warm ! I'd hit the floor again . I'd spent a week in the hospital a few weeks ago , another MRI and the talk of relieving pressure from my skull ! Something very strange happened that week , IV drip , the swelling had quit , BP back to normal , stability returning , Yo ...! ...? That tumor lie dormate , no bigger , no smaller ......ok , I'm back ....? Just now , I was out re-roofing my fire wood bin , repaired my riding mower , seems on my my forth life ? I have no clue why , doctors are again speechless , the surgery was canceled , head aches manageable , WTH ....? Something much greater than I is keeping me up right ! I have made many life style changes and given myself every chance to over come this insanity but something far greater than me , doctors , whatever , I feel fine .....this is a celebration ! I almost feel guilty at times given so many chances . I've no idea of my future , why , what but what I'd learned is that love is the most valueable prevelage in life . Live every minute like it's the last cause none of us know when that is .....! So then , what can I do worthy of all these chances next ?