Haven't hunted before this week - as I have enough property, I hunt in the back yard. As i can hunt in the back yard, I have only the investment of a couple tags, and a few slugs. Truth in lending - I'm not hunting; I'm ambushing. Sitting out day one, I spent about two hours in the evening - just listening. Enjoying my deer stand (it's like a small shed with openings for firing, about 10 feet in the air). My second couple hours went the same way - nothing. Saturday I had two does come into the 'kill zone'. I shot at the trail doe. I shot low. Ugh. Just hair on the ground - no blood as the deer ran off with purpose. Smooth-bore shotty w/ rifled slugs = not great. No optic either - going with the little bb on top of the barrell. Last night I saw what I think is the same pair. Lighting conditions and angle prevented me from taking the shot. I'm at odds with myself on this. I want to learn the circle of life stuff of hunting; I'm tired of having no connection or respect for the meat I buy. I want to respect the process by investing my emotions into the kill. I won't be posting photos of the kill - I won't even take pics. Feels like gloating to pose with something i've killed. Not sure how to reconcile respect for the animal and posing with it's carcass. Anywho - I'll report back; going to continue to seek either of the does over the next week.