Hi all, Brand new to the forum, but looking for some advice. I'm not well-versed in firearms at all, basically consider me a n00b. I'm looking for suggestions on what guns to try out for my first firearm. I want a 9mm and I'd really like to have a decock lever. Why do I want a decocker, you ask? Because I don't really want a safety and I like the "safety feature" of the decock lever. Yes I know my safety is my finger. I was told to look at Ruger p89 but I couldn't find any of those anywhere around me. What I did find was a Ruger p95 but.. it just didn't feel right in my hand. I had to completely change my grip to reach the magazine release with my thumb. I didn't like that feel, but I liked the gun. I don't think I have tiny hands, but I don't have bear paws either. I'm about 5'9". I know I need to go to a shop that rents them out and try out different ones, but I'd like to have an idea of what guns I should look at. Plus the only shop I've found around here doesn't have the greatest selection and honestly the rentals are pretty beat up and some don't fire where you want them to. It was hard for me to like something that wasn't working properly. I don't have the greatest aim, but I seem to be able to hit basically what I'm aiming at. I'm willing to take any advice you can offer Thanks.