"I'm trying to be patient"
Your patience will pay off. I never did like the fit and feel of the Ruger in my hand.
I've owned my 45 for six years and the maker and the caliber is all I'll ever own now. I tried other makes and models and nothing works in my left hand like this one does. Fit, finish, ambidexterous, balance, tritium sights, Hogue grip, Stock Factory loaded Ultra Compact.
Except for range time, it's Concealed Carry. One other point I have if I can offer it. Spend good money on a good holster, no matter how you carry the pistol. I'm talking 100 Bucks or so for leather. Mine is High Noon Holster's inside the belt horsehide. Waited 3 months to get it. Worth every minute.