JoshH, don't go out and buy a lottery ticket, you have already used up most of your luck. You are lucky to be alive after the table incident, and you are even luckier to still have a hand. Most people who put a hand into a rebar bender don't still have a hand afterwards.
If I have to explain why I ride, you wouldn't understand. Explaining sex to an alien would be easier than explaining the feeling, one that boils all that is going on in your life down to what really matters each time you are in The Wind. All I can say is, Life is not Life without it.