Getting my CCW has not changed my personality or my attitude at all. With what my father taught me about fighting and self defense, I have always tried to avoid fights when possible. Granted, I have been charged with assault on 2 occaisions in my teens, and it was only after a long talk with the county Sheriff and the county judge that I was approved. The charges were dropped in both cases. Case 1, I had a guy bust a beer bottle over my head, and I used him to break 2 tables and a window after he pulled a knife. He had 1 witness, I had 12. Case 2, my cousin's husband came home drunk one night, and mistook her for a punching bag. His mistake was not checking the rest of the rooms in the house first. I wound up putting him in the hospital, where his FIL and my father had a little talk with him while he was there. Charges were dropped the next day. I was told to keep my temper in check by the Sheriff and the judge, and I had to keep myself out of troublr for one year before they granted my CCW.
If anything, I am more aware of my suroundings now, so that I will have a better chance of staying out of trouble. It is not worth the risk of losing my CCW unless someone else is going to, or is trying to use deadly force against me or my family. If that is the case, I would, in all likellyhood, still have the right to CC. My own feeling on that is, I am not doing my job right if I wind up in that position.
If I have to explain why I ride, you wouldn't understand. Explaining sex to an alien would be easier than explaining the feeling, one that boils all that is going on in your life down to what really matters each time you are in The Wind. All I can say is, Life is not Life without it.