Originally Posted by Dearhunter
I am so sorry for your lose. I have gone through this and it is painful. Each day that passes things get a little better. But you will never forget the love your shared with your dog. (that's the good part)
Hang in there.
DH said it better than i can. i had to put down my golden\collie mix 3 years ago, and it still hurts from time to time. she was an intervention rescue on my part, 6 months old, broken hind leg, ribs and front paw, and she was only 18 pounds when my vet put her on the scale. to say she was in rough shape is an understatement. if i had not taken her, she would have been dead within a few days.
a couple years after this, she had gotten out of the puppy stage, and had mellowed out. she did have minor issues with seperation anxiety and submissive urination for most of her life, but overall she was a happy, loyal, and healthy dog. It took a lot of work on my part to bring her to this point. she weighed in at 95 to 100 pounds, and was taller and thinner than a golden would be, kind of had the collie's lankiness.
when my first wife left, she took the dog with her. every time she let the dog out, she would escape and make her way home to me. after 2 weeks of the dog not eating for her, escaping to my place, and growling at my replacement, she gave up and told me to keep her.
when my current wife and i finally accepted the signs and got together, lady bonded to my daughter as well. if she was out, i was the one she followed around, but when she was home, i was in second place. she would split time at night between the bedrooms during the night to keep an eye on both of us.
in 2009 i found a lump on one of her front legs. we took her to the vet, and the lump was removed and biopsied. non cancerous tumor, retrievers are prone to them, so they are no big deal. she had a couple more pop up between then and late 2010, and all were handled the same way. in early 2011, we noticed that she had started to loose weight, and didn't seem to have as much energy as she used to. we figured it was old age, and thought nothing of it at first. soon after, a large tumor started to form on her abdomin, so we took her to the vet to get it checked. this time, it was the worst news we could have gotten. cancer.
the vet told us that she had maybe a couple of months left, as it didn't seem to cause her discomfort at that point. take her home, keep her comfortable, and enjoy the time you have left. when the time comes, let me know and we'll take care of her for you. the part that got me is, our vet had tears in her eyes and a hitch in her voice when she said this. she'd gotten attached to her too.
we had her put to sleep in late june of 2011. my wife, my ex, and i were there in the room with her when her heart beat it's last. in the end, she knew she was loved. my uncle and a close family friend dug the grave in our garden for her while we were at the vet's office, and she took the rest of the night off to help with the burial. (where in the hell did i put that box of kleenexes?) burried with her is a bottle of labatt's blue, her favorite. i would open one, and have to pour it into a dish for her, otherwise she would tip the bottle over and lick it off the floor. lol. her leash still sits behind the seat in my truck, and her tags are on my key ring. can't tell i miss her, can ya?
it's gonna hurt for a while, that is the price we pay for their love and devotion, but soon you will be able to look back and smile. so much happiness leads to some pretty bad pain, but it is worth it in the end. we have gotten another dog, my wife's lab who came from a similar situation. she is not a replacement for lady, i don't expect her to be. each dog is just as unique as each one of us is.
you and your's are in my thoughts and prayers.
1997 to 28 June, 2011.