My condolences. My wife and I are on our second rescue. The first was a Golden retriever mix that I had for 15 years, who we had to have put down due to cancer. She was one of the few things I still had after my divorce, and had a very strong bond with my daughter. We still miss her.
The current one is a 2 year old lab who was left in an apartment when the owner's moved and couldn't take her with them. There is no doubt that she is my wife's dog.
She had to have been up there for at least a week to ten days, and was very sick when we got her from the property owner. Just thinking about that pizzes me off to no end. How someone can do that to a dog is something I will never understand, and I am sure there is a special place in Hell for folks like that.
Sorry for your loss my friend. You and yours are in my thoughts and prayers.
If I have to explain why I ride, you wouldn't understand. Explaining sex to an alien would be easier than explaining the feeling, one that boils all that is going on in your life down to what really matters each time you are in The Wind. All I can say is, Life is not Life without it.