Sorry for your loss, prayers for you and your family
I lost mine little over 9 years ago. I'm so glad he was around to be part of my wedding, but I still miss him.
Lost mom a couple of months ago, difference being, in her final months we had some "issues". In my heart, I know I did everything I could to help her, but she was too damn stubborn to admit I knew what was better for her, and yet I still miss her too
Don't dismiss the need to talk to a counselor.