Originally Posted by widowmaker
I miss waking up and hearing my wife breathing next to me. I miss the smell of fresh coffee in the morning knowing she got up to make it for me. I miss her griping at me because I didn't mow the yard when she wanted it done. I miss her.
that's sad. honestly i never thought about such things when i was younger and married, but now that the wife and i are older, and after reading about your wife, it causes me to think about that in the future, one of us will go before the other, and leave the other one behind, alone.
i don't know if it would be better for me to go first or her. in sort of non selfish part of me, i hope she goes first, so she doesn't have to deal with my loss and being alone. that she goes first, because she is a kind and loving person and gets to bein paradise before me. that she goes first, to end all her pain and suffering and so she not hurting anymore. i feel even with this loss i can suffer through the loss and the being alone better than if i went first. i do know, that if she does go first, i will be missing one of the greatest parts of my life.
Widowmaker, i am sorry for your loss and you have my condolences and prayers. thank you for that post, because it brings to light that we need to cherish the time we have with the most important people in our lives. it sounds like your wife was an important part of your life and that she is deeply missed. and the more we miss someone, it reinforces the fact that we truly did love them, and the influence they had on our lives.