My sympathies, friend.
I put down my 15 year old Golden Retriever, "Dugan," more than 10 years ago, and I think of him every single day. At least I have 15 years worth of memories.
Think about Mozart every day. It will help. After a while, the memories will stop being painful and become golden.
For those who have fought for it, freedom has a taste the protected will never know!
Or at least they did before political correctness