My sympathies, friend.
I put down my 15 year old Golden Retriever, "Dugan," more than 10 years ago, and I think of him every single day. At least I have 15 years worth of memories.
Think about Mozart every day. It will help. After a while, the memories will stop being painful and become golden.
History fails to record a single precedent in which nations subject to moral decay have not passed into political and economic decline. There has been either a spiritual awakening to overcome the moral lapse, or a progressive deterioration leading to ultimate national disaster.
If you think a strong military is expensive, think about what a weak one would cost