After much soul searching recently I have realized that I have developed a massive dependency problem.
Being a quiet and private man this problem is not something I can admit to easily. Those closest to me have noticed this for a while now and some have even spoken up and even offered help. Of course I was not ready to accept the reality of the situation so their offers were declined.
Although I have come to this realization and now admit to my problem I do not know if I have the courage to overcome it.
My family support in this matter is shaky at best and my closest friends are spread out geographically. This past week has conclusively proven that I am incapable of rational thought. It may be that I will need the help of the fine members of this forum for as much moral support as you all can afford.
You see, I cannot stop buying firearms parts for my AR's. It all started with a small suggestion to buy an AR15 and an AR10. Simple enough, yet at the time I couldn't possibly imagine such a small thing to grow so out of control. Not only have I become consumed by my AR15 and AR10, I have also endeavored on a customized AR15. I have spent countless hours scouring the internet in search of information. I have spent even more countless hours looking for available parts. Even when the parts are listed as back-ordered I am compelled to whip out the plastic and charge away. I wake in the middle of the night, running comparisons through my head. Mentally checking to see if I have acquired all the parts I need for my babies. I see no light at the end of the tunnel, only more AR's.
Please, I beg you. Help me.
Disclaimer: to those that personally suffer or have family or friends that suffer from dependency I mean no harm. God bless.